My last post here was on 4th January’13, I never imagined in my worst nightmare what happened in the days between 5-7 Janurary’13 and since then what has happened.
Things though far from normal, seems to be on track to at-least regaining 80-90% normalcy if not 100%. It may take a good many months, but then somethings are beyond our control.
Its been 3 months and 2 days since I came(23rd Dec’12) from Bangalore to Mumbai as my mom was admitted in hospital(19th December’12) and the diagnosis was yet to happen as to whats been ailing my mom past 5 months.
And then things started to unfold…one after another.
Started with Meningitis(caused by a very strong bacteria known as Listeria), then a type of Cancer(Non-Hodkins Lymphoma), then she went into Septic Shock and was in ICU for 6 days and during this she also got Pneumonia(caused by a again very strong bacteria called Klebsiella). This was followed by not one but 3 severe neuropathy condition – Peripheral Neuropathy, Radiculopathy, GB Syndrome.
Needless to say, our family has been going through hell and the hell like a blind tunnel at times doesn’t seem to end. How bad was it? Well let me say I pray everyday that not even 10% of what we have gone through should happen to my worst enemy.
Nothing is more disturbing unsettling, traumatic than the health and seeing the suffering of your loved one, specially when its your parents and specially when its your mom.
The good thing is that here I am alive – more stronger, more resilient, more positive, more optimistic – to tell all that what happened.
What has happened has happened, we cannot go back in time and undo all that…but what we can do is what in our hands. To rebuild, to regroup, to face it, to see what can be done, to see how we can best handle this, how we can come out of it and how we can continue to be positive, be full of hope and faith as we have always tried to be.
Except for prayers we are not looking for any help from anyone as frankly no one can understand, no one can feel, no one can empathize what we have got through. Only those who go through and see in front of them the suffering can feel the pain.
But yes prayers do have this magical power attached to them. :-)
I do wish to chronicle some part if not all here on my blog, not to share my problems but may be to inspire others who may be going or who have gone through it.
I don’t have a structure in place yet, so lets see how the future posts look like…who knows I may even write a book on it!
Rear view mirror in car is smaller as its utility is limited. Such is life! No point looking back…
…Onwards to rebuilding…Onwards to a better tomorrow…Onwards to a better life…in myriad colors and shades.
Life is what we make of it…regardless of the situation.